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Third Trimester Nerves

Third Trimester Nerves | mother in blue stripey dress carrying young daughte Its little more than 7 weeks until baby number 2 gets here and I’m starting to have a mild panic!!! I only really noticed it yesterday when I was showing Ettie the baby book I’d completed for her while she was in my tummy (and again once she was born). All the pages were full with little photos of my bump and a message about what we’d been up to each week. It’s such a lovely keep-sake, but looking at I was smacked with Mum guilt because this little one doesn’t even have a new babygrow to call his or her own yet! At this stage in my pregnancy with Ettie, I felt really connected to my bump! We’d built the crib, had drawers full of nappies and I was checking the Baby Centre app almost daily to look up her development. But for the little pea in my tummy, I’ve made one solitary purchase! Granted it is another baby book which I do intend to fill in once he/she is here- but I think I’m in a bit of denial that they’re actually on their way!

Until the weekend, I’d put this severe lack of organisation down to the fact that I’m still working (almost) full-time, telling myself that there’ll be time to sort everything out once I finish work, and I suppose that is still partly the case. But thinking about it, there’s probably another dimension to this lack of preparation and that’s fear!! … Fear of the unknown, fear of change and most of all fear that I wont have the energy to parent two small children? I think I’m burying my head in the sand osterich style because I’m worried I’m not going be able to cope?

Before going back to work, I feel like I had the Mum thing down to a T. I knew when all the local baby classes were, had a strong group of Mum friends who I could call on most days of the week and the car was always packed and loaded ready for whatever adventure tickled our fancy that day. Be it a trip to the park, the farm or one of the National Trust places in our area, whatever the weather we were on it, and managed to get out of the house by 10.00 most mornings! Crikey I even cooked! I look back on that time now and don’t even recognise myself!!

Since then, Ettie has grown into a feisty, crazy, energetic (almost) two year old and I’m worried she’s left me behind! For the past 12 months I’ve been working 5 days a wrek. That means that for 5 days out of 7, I’ve had the luxury of enjoying a hot cappuccino in peace and scrolling the internet at leisure if the mood took my fancy!! What if I’ve spoiled myself with all these little indulgences and I won’t be able to drop back into the hard graft of being a full-time Mum?? She’s been gaining energy and independence by the bucket load, whilst I’ve been sipping hot tea in an office. Throw a tiny new-born baby into the mix, and I just don’t know how we’re ever going to leave the house!

It seems ridiculous having these fears now, I’ve wanted a second baby for so long…, in fact we want another one after this and I’ve had 8 months to prepare!! But now the reality is just around the corner and I’ve seen the ferociousness of a two-year old’s tantrum first hand, I’m a little bit scared about what the future will hold! My mum friends have all returned to work, our house is still undergoing renovations and stupidly I haven’t saved any money to get me through the 9 months of SMP!! I feel like I’m flying round trying to keep all my plates spinning in the air and I haven’t even added the new babies plate to a pole yet!

There’s also the bubbling guilt that my little side kick and best friend in the whole wide world, won’t be my Number 1 anymore – well of course she’ll be my Number 1, but she’ll only be half of it! How does that work? How will I cuddle two children to sleep at bed time and sniff two heads whist we’re cuddled up on the sofa? Also what if she doesn’t need me anymore, because she has a sibling to play kitchens with and share all her secrets and worries? This hits the heart-strings in so many ways, I can’t even write about it, but I know in the long run the joy she’ll get from having a sibling will outweigh any of those fears and so I’m parking those emotions to the side for now.

I’m sure everything will be OK, I know I have a tendency to worry about things before they happen (doesn’t everyone!) and I’m sure we’ll find our rhythm again, but for now I just wanted to record these feelings so I can look back on them and see how I fared up!! It wasn’t ever my plan to go back to work full-time and somewhere along the line I think I’ve fallen out of Mum mode which frustrates me. I know I have a challenge ahead, I just hope I can look back on this in 12 months and think ‘I don’t know what you were worried about’ … but for now, with 7 weeks to go I’m a little bit scared about what the future holds and I just wanted to share that …



  1. 12th June 2018 / 2:50 pm

    I remember feeling like this. I sorted everything in the last few weeks. I was so worried I’d neglect my eldest I came straight home and read to her leaving baby to sleep. You will be fine though 🙂 2 lots of cuddles are amazing!

    • 19th June 2018 / 2:06 pm

      Oh thankyou, thats so reassuring to know!! Its such a big life change its hard to imagine xx

  2. 13th June 2018 / 4:33 pm

    Your post took me back to old days…around 10-years back. Third trimester makes us feel worried and confused.

    • 19th June 2018 / 2:06 pm

      So nervous! Glad its not just me xxx

  3. 14th June 2018 / 12:17 am

    Ah this is a great post, so honest. There is so much to think of and plan for and get done before baby arrives, not to mention the fears of how things will change. But as we all know, #itsok in the end and we eventually find a way to work around everything. Thanks for linking up with us at #itsok and good luck!

    • 19th June 2018 / 2:07 pm

      Thankyou !! Im hoping I’ll feel a little more prepared once I’ve finished work and actually have time to get things sorted x

  4. twotinyhands
    14th June 2018 / 8:19 am

    Very real worries and feelings!! I never went back to work between my two kids so I don’t think I had the same level of worry but I still had it! My age gap is 2.1/4 between my two and having both has been easier and better than I imagined. We go out everyday, we hang out, we play, we sleep, it’s exhausting but it’s worth it!! ‪Thank you for linking up to the #familyfunlinky‬

    • 19th June 2018 / 2:08 pm

      Thankyou so much! This is exactly what I needed to hear! :* xx

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