We are so unbelievably happy about this and cant wait to welcome a new little recruit into our family, in fact we already feel like a family of four (five). But its only really been in the last week that we’ve allowed ourselves to relax into the pregnancy and get excited. (For those who aren’t long term readers, we’ve experienced heartache in the past which is why we were a bit more wary this time).
As of Monday, we had the 20 week scan where everything appears to be growing as it should so we finally feel able to spread the news!
Aside from not wanting to jinx things by telling you all to soon, I’ve also found it really difficult to think of things to write about which weren’t in some way pregnancy related! Most people, use their little space on the web, as a sort of online journal to document life, but when there was a huge secret dominating my life that I wasn’t quite ready to share, I didn’t want to feel like I was lying by keeping something from you, so I found it easier to write nothing at all (plus I felt horrendous!!!).
So even though at 21 weeks, you’d think the excitement would have died down by now, for us it’s actually only just begun.
So what can I tell you…??
Well I’m 21 weeks pregnant now meaning our little one will be here in just a few months’ time!! Our due date is sometime between the end of July and beginning of August (another summer baby woo!!), but because due dates can be so flexible, I’m opting to concentrate on a ‘due window’ instead!
The first four months were HARD much harder than when I was pregnant with Ettie. I absolutely do not want to complain about anything pregnancy related as we have waited for this baby for so long, but it was a tough couple of months. I didn’t really want to dwell on it too much here as this is a happy post, so I’ve written a separate blog post all about the first four months here if you’re interested.
We’ve had three scans so far (one private and two NHS) and we’ll have two more before the baby is born to check things are all progressing as they should be. I find scans so nerve-wracking because we’ve had such horrible news at them in the past. I can’t say I really enjoy the experience, but each time I’ve heard this little ones heart beat and had the all clear from the sonographer, I’ve breathed a little deeper and cried huge happy tears on the basis that I’m able to progress on to the next ‘level’ of pregnancy.
We haven’t found out the sex this time because I’d really like to have a surprise. Stu isn’t quite as keen joking that he needs a bit of warning if he’s to live in a house full of girls (he grew up with two sisters) 😉 But as we’re both just so happy to be pregnant, I know he doesn’t really mind.
Thinking about the birth, I had a C Section last time because Ettie was breech, but really want to try for a VBAC (vaginal birth after c section) this time. The reasons behind this are a little too detailed to cover properly here, so I am going to pop it all down in a separate blog post in a few weeks time and have a bit more of a detailed chat about it there.
Name wise … I don’t think we’re going to pick anything out this time! I had a list as long as the Eiffel Tower with Ettie and still have it in the notes section of my phone. But even after trawling Nameberry daily throughout the whole of my pregnancy, we went with something completely different when she was born so I’m going to wait and see what this one looks like when he/she comes out and then we can go from there.
To be given the chance to become a Mum again is something I will never take for granted and I am so eternally grateful that we’ve been given this opportunity. It makes me so happy knowing we are giving our little girl a sibling to run around with. I know I probably won’t truly relax until the little baby is safely out and in our arms, but until then I’m taking each day slowly getting to know them by savouring each and every little kick and movement.
Please keep growing big and strong our little baby, your Daddy, big sister and I cannot wait to meet you xxx
All so excited to meet the bump x
Pink jumper: ASOS Maternity